I so wish i could spend one day without having to plan how to spend it....
I'll be frank. I've quit thinking how the past nine months went by. It'll truly freak me out. And i've grown pretty used to the routine that i've been following, And i must say i'm truly impressed by the way i can adjust to changes. Heh. God knows, if there have been difficult projects i have handled (in my life), this has been the the queen of them all; so what if it had nothing to do with work. And i just dont hope it has any competition for the years to come... at least in this lifetime. Sheh! just so crassly corporate of me to word it like that.
The mini kitty inside my brain's been howering around alarmingly low levels of romance as its been replaced with irrational insecurity and fear of what future holds. But, Thank God, i am able to wriggle out of such paranoia when i tell myself that i Do Not regret any decisions i have made till now. No. If i were to live through another lifetime, i would take exactly the same decisions, make the same mistakes and learn perhaps something more than what this lifetime taught me. So when i take a look at the larger picture, it occurs that what i did, and have been doing, and will do, is what i stand for and thus it totally makes sense. So goodbye fear. One wish... i get all these nice people around me each time im live. (Sorry have been too much into Dr. Weiss's books lately). As for romance, when i dont create it, there's NSG. :) Gawd! What would i have been if it were not for this... this nice sweet guy. He's been a darling. I'm afraid he loves me more than i love him. And that's too much. :)
Thanks for sitting through the arbit rantings. I've made sure none of the above makes sense to whoever reads it and i hope i accomplished my task well.
It's been raining again. So am off to watch it. :)
4 comments:
for a change, task not accomplished..cos it made sense.. loads!!
and i liked this post more than quite a few others.. it gives a warm feeling within..
stay good, stay happy...
Really? Thanks! It gives me a warm feeling too, now that you said it... :)
Since the last few days I've been wondering if I have made the right choices and decisions in life and then I read your post :-) Thankyou for saying 'If i were to live through another lifetime, i would take exactly the same decisions, make the same mistakes and learn perhaps something more than what this lifetime taught me. So when i take a look at the larger picture, it occurs that what i did, and have been doing, and will do, is what i stand for and thus it totally makes sense'.....thankyou so much! Sorry but this post makes a whole lot of sense to me! :-)And yes Brian Weiss just maybe the connecting factor between our thought processes!
Hmmmm....makes a poignant point, this post.
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